Feelin tickety boo about me today yay!

Strange visions of self forfillment last nite left me hankering,
but on re-evaulation i was just wanting a bigger object for the job :)
and my hankering for a partner was quelled by a feeling of having all i need,
my own body and soul contents me now.

And thus my dancing on my own parade today :)

Its good to feel myself dance,
to watch myself interact and create smiles,
to involve myself and contribute,
and all i needed was me

The amount of time pish poshing about...
It seems that my life has become more involved in nothing.
Im doing more but its more that is less worth mentioning.
So i play tennis,
so i cooked a nice meal,
its not,
so i jumped out of a plane,
or so i joined a band...
even the appeal of a change of hair colour is losing its appeal....
although i am excited about the cut :)
i wonder how it is that i fail to be satisfied with the things i do,
or perhaps now i accept the dissatisfaction,
compared to when i was 15 when i said to myself... when i'm older i'll do that or forfill that need.
its the taking responsibility part which is so dissatisfying.
i have to be responsible for the fact that i aint doing anything cool :)