So i feel bloated and stuffed full of unnecessary.

i should really dispel a lot of information but i cling to it like nothing is worthless.
i need the scales to weight up the difference between me knowing information and not knowing / letting the information go to see if the extra burden i give myself actually pays off.

sometimes i think i should just forget about it and do stuff but i do revert back to being absorbed into detail and the postulations of whats happening. dealing with my reactions seems more logical