that fuckin shits me... i just wrote the blog... pressed publish... bam, its gone... error, error...grrrr

anyway i wrote something about how my personality is fighting with itself. equally extroverted and introverted, each side is constantly trying to prove its not the other... and to be honest itd be much easier to be introverted. my lack of committment to one personality over the other and one view over the other definitely reduced my depth of character as i can never establish a routine or consistency that brings satisfaction

at the same stage, my lack of acceptance of my own un-commital nature still gets me... i mean i know i'm consistently in a state of confusion and unwilling to choose one option over the other... and yet i still haven't learnt how to deal with this. perhaps i am playing the impossible card. i do sometimes tend to take the hard option just to prove either i'm not average or the same as others or that i'm able to handle it...

why... isn't it nicer to be easier on yourself sometimes ?