company i keep

i pride myself on being casual and having a lax attitude not because i don't know anything more dignified but i enjoy comedic banter at a semi-feral level.
on reflection on the company i thus tend to keep i don't seem to have many intelligent, witty humoured friends. they seem to be a rarer species as i age too. like is it so impossible to have intellegence and bare bummed humour ? i see people, who look like they have it and i wonder why my attraction barrier is up with them.i would really like to know how i seem to have friends from ever sector of every stereotype bar the one that is similar to me. i must search more for the rare species, hunt down and mate with it!
if anything is lacking in my life its equal company. not that you necessarily need equality to have good company but bloody hell it'd be nice once in a while.i don't think i'm cool enough when i'm around these people, for some reason i don't fair well. i was watching the virgin suicides last nite and kirsten dunst has this semi ackwardness when she kisses the trip dude, but somehow cool people seem to make this akwardness seem cool and dags like me just seem akward. i strive to be comfortable only to be shown up by t.v yet again.i think its time for less comparison and more doing tho.