how is it i function better when i'm fucked off with shit, please explain!!

i mean seriously its like when im not trying things work better, i try but i just don't get it.

how does not thinking = better functionality...

anyhow i'm fucked off, sick of people, what a load of tosspots, wankers, uninteresting, boring as fuck, self absorbed, not really that good, bunch of hypocryts (i don't even know how to spell it thats how unfamiliar i am with the word)! i mean really what does it take to be a little interesting and how come most people are so AVERAGE i mean why would you bother being average! shucks. and the fact that they look at you weird, like i've got something to be concerned about, at least i'm not so delusional that i get wrapped up in this thing called reality like it knows the truth :<> like daaaaaa ( i love lowering myself to rikki lake status "i mean lowest level of conversation over heeeeeere, i mean please"(much tone attached to this statement))

well it actually helps being fucked off with everyone to be nice to them. its like "whatever" i don't care about u, so i don't care if i get along with you or not... and you end up getting along with them better (well u think you do and as long as they are smiling its all good)

sometimes the randomness of attraction just fully shits me!

like really if i was to design an object that was attracted to another object, in this scenario me being object number one and lets say "going to work" being object number 2 (going to work is objectified as i have certain attraction to doing it) then i would surely design object number one's destiny to interact with object number 2 in a "that's the way its supposed to happen way" instead of the random haphazard manner in which it does occur. and perhaps objects 1 and 2 just are following their own chaotic journey's until they come in the vicinity of one another and then the attraction takes place then surely it should be a reaction, "bam" instead of a wishy washy "oh yeah lets give this a go, we'll see how it goes"!

the whole nature of interactions, the fact that there is only a limited amount of patterning (full credit to "god", there is shitloads but really its a pretty, not uncontrolled but unplanned environment that we live in. its like putting a whole load of paint colours into a jar a seeing which shade of poo brown it turns :)

i am regularly unimpressed with the "make it up as you go along" mentality in which i have to function, not that i mind making it up, the creative reality in which i parade is fine but its the "not knowing for what reason" part that just shits me.

easy queezy oh so not japanesey!

as much as i hate a giggling girl, its hard not to be consumed by someone!

wholely devoured is usually how i like to go,

and this time its certainly wholely obsessed!

i couldn't possibly make myself quiver anymore without there being no temperature differences

its noice :)