pee time

grrrr i'll write this and then pee

resist, resist and again, "jane fonda resist"

"feel the burn" i used to love it when she said that

what a sexy ass bitch :)

anyhow i was going to add to the many blogs ranting about the onset of xmas but fuck it, i'll induldge in the fact that its a built up and maybe find a friend to do something bizarre with.... searching, searching.... ok well maybe it'll be all about moi :) and some inventive headspace to induldge in :)

watching blood

i sit watching blood drip, with a plop sound into the toilet bowl

it dispiates slowly, the thicker more gluggy consistency forming jellyfish blobs which bop around

thats my blood in that bowl

im a leaky vessel

taking corners fast

i've decided i'm sick of hanging with these people who fear living.
fear doing things and a stuck in a society bound world of restriction.
i'm going to actively seek people who say "fuck it" and give it a go anyway. i think i did this anyway but now i'm not settling for less... or realistically at least until i need friends.

i wanna hang with the people who like to take corners fast.
go exploring in deserted buildings when they walk by
say "come on" and run to things cause they are so excited
and who i'm happy to go on random roadtrips to nowhere and i'll know that it'll be good just cause they inspire me

damn i want this

company i keep

i pride myself on being casual and having a lax attitude not because i don't know anything more dignified but i enjoy comedic banter at a semi-feral level.
on reflection on the company i thus tend to keep i don't seem to have many intelligent, witty humoured friends. they seem to be a rarer species as i age too. like is it so impossible to have intellegence and bare bummed humour ? i see people, who look like they have it and i wonder why my attraction barrier is up with them.i would really like to know how i seem to have friends from ever sector of every stereotype bar the one that is similar to me. i must search more for the rare species, hunt down and mate with it!
if anything is lacking in my life its equal company. not that you necessarily need equality to have good company but bloody hell it'd be nice once in a while.i don't think i'm cool enough when i'm around these people, for some reason i don't fair well. i was watching the virgin suicides last nite and kirsten dunst has this semi ackwardness when she kisses the trip dude, but somehow cool people seem to make this akwardness seem cool and dags like me just seem akward. i strive to be comfortable only to be shown up by t.v yet again.i think its time for less comparison and more doing tho.

oooo new link box

perhaps i was behind the times but i don't believe i had a link box before and really i read how to use it and too much work at mo

offical blowup
blow out
blown fuse
big badazzle

blown eh... its a popular term really, to make comment to the bursting of a bubble.
how is it everything is so dramatic and undealable in the moment and later i am able to distance myself and say "what a tool"
i partially blame being a woman, a veritable waiting to burst bubble of emotions and chemical composition.
i reliquish,
i hand over the joy stick,
i can't fucking deal with being so emotional,
body change now please mr controller :)

overopinionated troublemaker

my mouth is a big overopinionated troublemaker.
often it serves me well in terms of outlandish commentary of a semi - eclectic nature
othertimes i am a dogmatic, tool :P
anyhow enough beration. maybe i can convert the crap to cool or maybe i'll just end up feelin like this :
"insert image "which am incapable of doing" of napolean dynamite"

feckers

i wish there was a fucken category called fuckin feckers and their fucken stigmata into ur life.
sometimes i just can't deal with people and their talk, i've spent an hour listening to family ramblings and now i'm so fucken irrate i can't say anything without a "i told u so" tone or a "fucken think about it !!" tone.
i definitely have an attitude problem and as much as i know i have one, i can't think of any other satisfactory way to deal with the little feckers

foot in mouth

ooo just put my foot in it at work and told boss well i could always just take a sicky to get my way.... aaahh oops
now i can't stop thinking about how he probably thinks im a snappy tom... oh well its done now :P

world of possibilities

anyway i was going to put which music i was listening too...it didn't come up so its www.myspace.com/themotifs
i was looking for the rollerskates (perth band) if they are on here help me ? and i found this chick, she's quite good, she reminds me of some hippy love chant which is sort of cool
can't get enough action... i seem to always want to do a little more and never quite get there... presumeably cause i invent more things i want to do... i envision a world of infinite possibility and wonder if it would be forfilling
no comments on how this world is that world, this does not go with that at susans.