and u wouldn't have believed me if i hadn't got ..

the sign :)

i also bought a model version of it... damn i collected some crap in vegas!

to a certain degree my favourite part of pointing to the sign was when i was pointing at it disappearing into the dust of the rearview, damn its a hard city, so much walking... up one huge pyramid... down one huge pyramid... swing across one circus tent and down one pirate ship... and so much flashing shit to distract the eyes... anyhow been there done that.. got way too many bloody tshirts :)

i now know i can create flashy shit, as i have a tendancy to distract the eyes with such things and know they are not in vegas... the city of big bloody flashing lights :)

hurrah... aim ... achieved.... its the little goals in life which feel good :)

showgirls ahoy

thats right look at the shame i put these 2 showgirls to, they look like tall lanky brown people compared to me ha!

if only there were millions of these girls wandering the streets like i'd dreamed :) ... one day i'll get that dream recorder and then i shall never need to leave the house again :)

its my favourite street in vegas

its in old vegas and it has a tv screen 4 football fields long.... and they have this wicked images that flash from one end to the other of fighter planes and alien landings and yep its cool...

please ignore bad angle cause yes the tv is on the roof :)

how very standard model

a concocted theory with a friend has led me to view most people as a standard model.

its like the car you buy the basic model or you can pay extra and get the accesories or just buy an older car with character or whatever. its amazing how many people end up being pretty standard. their mental box entends only as far as they know and doesn't extend into wanting or trying to understand or conceive things from a perspective other than their own.

how odd that most people survive through interaction with others but have very little desire to accept a true self but prefer an idea of normal or a comfortable, easy to deal, with standard model.

why i keep putting myself in these circumstances i don't know, it only hurts on realisation that they don't really understand or even desire to unstable themselves in pursuit of knowledge

lovin it

god i feel awesome,
everything is going so smoothly,
im enjoying being me,
im free from responsibility to friend or foe alla a partner
and i fuckin love it!

it like someone has just said
"run along child,
go play in the playground"
im scampering around going
"wooo hoo ! look at me

i went to datarock last nite.
duckin awesome little fuckers
it definitely helped with the way i feel today,
they really got me vibed,
i love funny fuckers

white stripes

ok so you can't see much and almost have to just believe me when i say this is the white stripes.

but if you were at all a fan you might recognise meg's 70's sport shorts and jacks intensity of the guitar

time disappearance

i manage to dwindle away time,
scoping this, checking that,
no output forthcoming.

does it add my dissatisfaction, yes
how is it im so attracted to flashy moving things :P

couple kafuffle

my shoulder chip today is couples.

how many so called friends do u loose to this phenomena, i mean obviously i don't want them anyhow seeing they are such drips in a relationship but im a bit over being second class conversation or hanging around people who "used to have" personality but now resort to cooing grrrrr

so im liquidating my friends and am on the uptake for independant people who aren't products of sex alone, but have acquired a sense of self. friend said to me the other day "where are the people with depth" i replied there was no point lookin in this ere town, it seems i had more of an idea than i thought.

im feelin like most people are a waste of effort. not to mention my stat's on losers have increased from the previous 85% of the population to probably about 97%

penguin slap

testing testing new photobucket bloggin :)

altime favourite slapstick moment and they ain't even human, probably why its so funny its unbelieveably situated comedy :)

viewpoint

its grotesque
i look at the chunk of cooked chicken in slow mo
as it wobbles on the end of the fork
it scares me to think of eating it
the unknown factor of its effect on my body
yes the full feeling, i know but its
the hormones and the pecking itself to death mentality of the chicken and
the other "affecting" properties
their effect, only a mindset really
yes the full feeling thats why i eat
its grotesque
i put my fork down

departure from self

ok so there are a few things i wish to change

like any dependancy on social interaction. self sufficiency full charge ahead.

i also wish to decrease comparative thinking. although beneficial in arguement and in research, its highly undesireable in my personal life. i shall do this through an increase in self absorption. sounds ludicrus i know but im guarenteed to think less of others / comparision to :)

so sounds like im in for a narsisstic year, well i haven't had one before so who knows maybe its what it takes to be happy to play a role in this manipulative society.

so morbid, i am definitely adding to the list of must change mentalities, a decrease in degrogitory thought on a place i happen to be in... society.