new avatar of myself

i don't know the exact definition of avatar other than its some animated construction usually of yourself
but i did hear a new expression of how i react which seems to characture my personality
when it comes to fight or flight i am a flight character right
my pyschiatrist gave me the analogy of when unable to flee, i like a little animal in the wild tries to make myself as small and inconspicuous as possible and thus avoid possible danger
in thinking about myself this way, all my physical characteristics seemed to fall into place
and on reflection i feel like plumping myself up, pushing out my fan of feathers and saying "huzzah, here i am in all my glory" just because i know that i do shrink and without warrant!
when it comes down to it, i always think people are relatively the same character there entire life, im yet to meet someone from school who was shy who has miraculously turned into the life of the party, although don't get me wrong i have seen people seem to be but knowing their character you can still see the evidence they carry of there existence
what im trying to say is, i suppose i realise its my character to avoid danger and shrivel and in this realisation i feel im ok with it, its only when its happening i dispise my lack of gusto but in detaching myself from the control of it i feel good :)