i heard 2 stories and saw many visible evidence of people being lovestruck on the weekend!
an absolute infatuation with the person and a clear wanting to be around them and share themselves with each other!
i came away from a party, which beforehand i had been content, with a sense of loss, a sense of not having that which is clearly avaliable to every human being when they find someone they really jel with!
although the previous evening i had been sure that i was nowhere even close to love but had been happy to continue a relationship, i believe this is out of fear!
and i believe this fear is holding me back from more forfilling times, dictated by who i am and how i interact... but due to my lack of belief of my capabilities on this front, i now just feel lonely and on the outside of life!
i know comparisons are wrong but they can also be a wake up call! i hope this is enough of a jolt!
1 comment:
Clairus Majorus!
I guarantee you that we have discussed this stuff regularly for many years!! You gotta be a whole person to make a good half in a relationship.. aint nothing wrong with working towards that!
Love yA
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