My new 6 foot fish tank

Rejection

Rejection, when u would do something and they can't be bothered!
Rejectionwhen u could do anything and they've only open to one option!
Rejection! Rejection! Am i not the same, am i not adequate! am i not!
Wat u want!
The misunderstanding bout why that could be... breeds rejection!

travelling along singing a song

do u travel hoping u will fall in love with a place and wanna spend the rest of ur days there or do u travel just to see a place!
i love perth and to be honest i think its got everything to offer but do i yearn for something better ?
A life of casual acceptance of everyday without being wrapped up in the bullshit of society!
Well hell yeah!
A simple life of honest livin without bein part of the ratrace, well yeah, i do wish for that!
But do i believe that its a reality?
A possibility?
Well frankly my dear i don't believe i do!
I think the whole world is wrapped up in it!
Its hard to believe i could find a middle ground, one where i could live with the comfortability which i like of society and that which would come with less possessions, most of which i've taken a liking too :)

dreamtime

i dreamt i had dreadlocks and they were dead sexy!
i gotta stop buying lotto, its like im waiting for an event to happen in my life instead of making shit happen!
i plod around with wat i've got and im getting ok with that, its more a case of wat more do i want!
but is wanting more a bad thing, or should i just go with the flo and if i feel the vibe do something else!
i know i feel a frustration at watching more tv!

BEER TIME

catching up with clare was great!
i do miss her freedom and i get nervous flourishing with her!
a freedom of expression with all the nervous elements of wanting!
wanting more time yet happy with anything she gives!
it contains also a not needing anything, not like its a have to cause i know its not a can have!
acceptance of interaction for wat it is!
i think this is something i used to possess a lot more of cause it was around the people that were congenial to it!
yay those people i say!

i don't have a cold

its amazing how many people think i have a cold,
in fact explaining it is starting to grate on me!
wish i could just be normal!

testing, testing

its like this big fucken test that no one is passing!
i know where i stand in the class, its not far up but im praised for my initiative!
i can't even say that is correct!
i just think i show initative but really im just a little different and i even fucken apologised for it!
fuck!
how suckered into this crap am i such that im sorry for being out of line!
sorry for being a little weird!
am i so sure that conformity is the answer, hell no, but for some reason i bear its babies like a good girl and pretend i like it and im doing ok!
i can barely speak, lord knows wat they think of me!
fuck!
i hate this trip!
if its all one glorious game to get to know ones self than i really screwed myself over!
lets hope the other parts of me are enjoying the ride, cause i drank to much of this cup of life and im about to barf!
and yet i suck up the american crap im fed and devour the reformatting they r giving me!
born to be born, may all beings be happy! who really knows that word!
certainly no one i know!
a bunch of misaligned shots at having a go!
oh well better luck next time!

hum of the 9-5

sleepin on trains has become my new fav pasttime, its up there with getting drunk!
Its a no pressure, soothing time of the day which is really now an extentsion of me staying in bed!
I wish in the same way that i don't have to get out of bed that i don't have to get off the train!

roofus

i credit my dog, roofus with a lot of my well being and still i keep him outside!
i question my love, i question my judgement of his happiness in being an outside dog!
i know other outside dogs who aren't happy but they also aren't walked daily or looked after much!
But then again how much is exactly that i do do with him and is it enough i wonder?