lotto pages

isn't it funny... i've been reading the lotto pages, it really does corny up the dream!! but i'm hooked!

HOW WOULD YOU SPEND A SHARE IN THE $19 MILLION SUPERDRAW?

11 April 2008

Tomorrow night's $19 million Superdraw has WA Lotto players' minds ticking over about just how they'd spend a Division One prize.

According to Lotterywest spokesperson, Gina Zanotti, the most common spending plans for Division One Lotto winners are paying off the mortgage, taking a holiday and sharing the money with family.

But there have been some winners whose spending plans include things that are a little out of the ordinary, such as:

• A pensioner who won $9 million in Powerball and planned to buy new flannel pyjamas.

• A big burly bloke from Kalgoorlie who said he would buy his Mum a new sewing machine.

• A syndicate of all-female aged care workers and one resident whose top priority was to buy new lingerie.

• A syndicate of four mine workers who booked a holiday at the luxurious El Questro homestead.

• Two women who planned on going to the ALF Grand Final at the MCG.

• A man who planned to finish flying lessons and get a job as a pilot.

• A man said he would walk the Great Wall of China.

• 56 Armadale shift workers whose spending plans included a Hills hoist and a new set of dentures.

"Everyone’s Lotto dream is a little different, and half the fun of playing Lotto is dreaming about how you’d spend a big prize. We're hoping to meet some lucky WA Superdraw winners next Monday, having made their dreams a reality – no matter how weird or wonderful!" said Ms Zanotti.

im addicted to lotto

so im reading all the lotto winners stories online,
and they are the corniest pieces of journalism you'll ever find
and yet it fills me with joy reading them,
just thinking how the "rags to riches" story could be me!!
there was a stat, 31 division 1 winners in wa till april 17th,
thats like 9 a month! i could totally be in that 9 :)
its not that im delusional about the amount of people and lotto tickets bought
i just honestly am swept up in the "charlie and the chocolate factory" idea that it could be me!
i've just got have lady luck!
my randomness is just as good as anyones :)
god, i really love lotto!!

ha! funny!

generation difference

there is the generation above, which im starting to feel more and more compassion to,
as i notice the younger generations dislocation!
its like one off puts me and the other reconfirms a sense of humanity!
its like im choosing which group im in and it pisses me off the lack of respect that the younger gen has!
im sure its a natural progression and its been happening for generations but the prominence of it,
strikes me as way more relevant to the way i want to live!
by all means be expressive but not to the detriment of others or the dislocation from otheres!
its like im agreeing we r all the same and altho ive always known i want it acknowledged like the older generation somewhat demands!
i feellike i stink like the alcohol that is left over from last night and i can't get away from it!
it really does ooze out and its not so pleasant!
its like an uncontrolled odor as much as u try to mask it, it pervades, like someone who hasn't bathed fordays,
u think i can't be that bad but u have aclimatized urself to urself such that a little scent to u, is oppressive to others!
but i don't know this, i just know i repulse myself in terms of nasal smell!
i don't like the idea of prominence over others environment,
or is it that i don't like being dominant,
noticed for the wrong thing!
easily flattered, easily offended!

train talk

all these people looking down,
tired or avoiding or afraid or isolated!
its all so dislocated!
wat is it if not a community that ur in!
its part of ur life the same as it is theirs,
why not be compromising and accepting of their part,
to make things comfortable!
the thing is,
am i saying that from a dominating point of view ?
i don't think so cause others dominate me,
but i do notice that im a bit louder than most in common circumstance,
i tend to dramatise and speak things dramatically which is usually overpowering and why would i do that ?
is it cause i need the reconfirmation that im ok and agree with me
or that i just feel the need to express ideas more than others,
i think i think that,
but i think i may be deluding myself!
my perception is that im out there but i don't think i dominate!
it does concern me tho,
maybe cause i do things differently!
i really don't care tho but only in retrospection,
i have to deal with myself, so i tell myself its ok and justify a good outcome,
cause there is no one else i need to justify it to!
it is my world!
but i still feel like im holding back!
i don't feel like i should be that different than those next to me!

no balance

i see all circumstances like mine,
and those that r not,
no balance between the 2
only the 2 fighting for an a monopolizing view in my head!
its weird, especially with me, who is tha, making decisions about which one i believe and i don't even know wat that voice is, apart from its a belief!
there are some people i am definitely scared of,
like wat r they doing ?!*!
and i don't know wat to do with wat they r saying!

dream

cotton wool ur eyes with salt water then sterilize your face and wash it off!
enter the hole in this special zone that leads to a younger world,
where you have to kill all the "bad" littler people and escape the hatch before they come back!
otherwise the next generation would change and you wouldn't exist.
took many trials to master the process to get to the parallel universe

if it came from the bible

if i said this question came from the bible would u love me or hate me ?
when someone shows compassion to someone they don't know, do u feel kindness ?

dislocation from emotion

there is an excess of uncatered for emotions!
randomly crying, to no-one!
wat happens when there is no family unit like in todays society and distance between individuals such that someone is left without support.
its become a cold world!

righteousness

how do u let go of righteousness,
a wanting to find out how to deal and figure life out correctly!
isn't that wat we are doing when we do meditation, thinking its our way, our figuring out the way to conduct our body and mind!
how do u let go of the trying to prove things to oneself ?

wat the

sometimes i really do wonder wat im doin ?
I mean I can't even make a decision about wat sort of life id like to lead, let alone actually making a life!
Is it about wat i become tho ?
how much i grow and take in?
Or is it just me feeling bits of myself, self propelent reaction and im just the spot that feels that like poke!
It is really just checking himself out, observing how he conducts himself, only to figure out there is nothing more to it than the observation.
It doesn't go anywhere or serve some meaning u put into it!
It just is an observing itself point of view!
Or is it about feeling and connecting itself back up to the whole!

dream - a - rama

There were outside and inside people and if the inside people went outside they would slowly diminsh and die.
they looked like lucazade bubbles, i had hey with a woman and a man and making the woman come made me come over her!

people they hurt

So this guy really hurts me when he is not interested!
And yet i invited him to hurt me again.
I was in a state of needing to feel liked and special and so i took something back which i lost last time,
my dignity,
but the next morning did i realise i'd actually given it back to him again ?
is it better being a sucker to a sense of humour and having someone say they want u being a sucker
or is it a wake up call to what u really want!
Is it a wake up call to standing up for urself and saying hold on im worth more than that.
But to be honest, i don't think i need more than that at the time.
At the time I think that all i need is to feel lighter, to feel freer, to feel like im more open to love because someone is offering it to me openly!
Saying im hot and confirming in words wat most of the time i find hard to say to others.
So where he has difficulty accepting afterwards, whether he regrets it or not, at that moment, he is there with me and i know its not a lie, the way he looks at me, i make him nervous, its ok!
Cause he does wat i don't and verbalizes wat i need and wat is comforting.
So if anything i have learnt that having this makes me feel good and right and happy!
That confirmation i got from spider, that she thought i was awesome, the shy signs from guys that show they r interested but have never said, this is wat i look for and obviously wat i need to make me happy!
I could fool myself and say otherwise but it comes back to the same old story,
im lookin for praise, a "great job" by my dad or a "ur fantastic" from my mum and i lack it!
but then again why is it when told straight out by kim i don't respond affectionately, altho sometimes i do!
But when she says it when not drunk i don't respond well!
Altho when texted by brenden i can automatically be dirty!
I just think im more attracted to the strength i don't have of a man!
The brut force of his caring and if someone ever showed me some of the corny lines of tv and was actually cool, it would take me 2 secs to fall in love!
But most people don't have that confidence about themselves, just like i don't!
So any presence would only ever be till u realised otherwise!
I also know i feel guilty, guilty cause when i had nothing, corgie was there and treated me the same but is that cause he doesn't really see who i am or cause he is actually just willing to put up with suffering?

superficial

I'm so sceptical of people, i step on their pillows!
Was it the disrespect or wanting of superficial attraction that i get pissed off at!
Either way i don't like attention seeking people!
And I don't want to react like they do!