tips for lonliness

dont watch love movies
dont watch movies where others are lonely
dont watch tv series about successful relationships
don't watch anything, get out of the fucken house fool!

the loss of loss

so its bemusing
one moment fine
thinking interview is going well
relating well to people
...
how distorted is my perception
and then
they "had a better candidate"
...
i don't think im made for working
i know! repetition!
....
why don't i do anything about it ?
why have i never taken a leap of faith into fashion?
a leap of faith into work life?
socially i leap, so whats the go ?
freudian father complex i reckon
... easier to place blame elsewhere
i haven't done anything
nothing ventured, nothing gained

maybe i should throw myself out of my own life and invite someone else in
i really want someone to tell me what to do