Commit to respond with action

Things I can do nadda about,
Consume thought after thought.
Commit
Commit to not wanting to think like this anymore
Respond
Take action to move,
Move to do something to counteract the thought.
You aren't good enough to do the job...
Think about how hard you are going to try to do the job and go and do that all day!
...
And I did!
Didn't get much written but am excited about the idea of work,
Doing work,
Doing work on myself about work,
Just work work work and feel good about the doing.
I may not be the most capable but I can put in as many hours as I can and I'm sure I could be the most capable I would hope for.
Repeating this mantra of just doing rectifies my state of mind back to one where I'm not losing 🤘

MJ Fitzpatrick says it's only when your at bursting point will you become fully committed to change.
I believe this to be true.
I call it the "fuck the world" moment.
Once I start thinking, fuck everything / everyone else, I start to get on from being where I was unhappy.
Admittedly, I haven't chosen the new direction, I've just picked a doable one, it actually seems all I'm capable of at that moment.
Muster up enough anger to do something within arm's reach.
I think till I get comfortable...
And this is again true.
I'm going to do this work till I'm confident enough and then choose.
This maybe my downfall.
I do the same with men...
Till I'm more confident to say, "no actually I'm going to hold out for a winner".
And then it becomes comfortable and what I'm in.
Well on a personal note I don't intend to do that this time.
I will continue to remuster again and again till I find a interaction that inspires living, inspires a vibrancy.
Job wise, I need to get experience under my belt to be able to express my capabilities and to utilise them, as they are currently like unfit muscles that need a few weeks of working out to be able to prove they are strong.