mind altering, its a knockout that's the game

I'm on the drugs that killed river Phoenix

It's a knockout that's the name, its a knockout that's the game, its a knockout that's the name of the game.

Can't help but think that this state of absorption of mind in the day to day and in particular the lack of attention focus which I was once famously revered by myself, is a product of clonazepam. I am grateful for the relief at not knowing my own anxiety of doing but I am also perturbed constantly by my own lack of awareness, particularly of others. My senses are dulled it seems to be at others levels, although I still maintain the values, the actual carry out is lost.

So what is lost?

The reaction to a person's feelings. The attention is there but there is a lack of awareness of value to reaction at the time. 

My interactions with others although may always have been as quick are less focussed on the feeling in responding to it. It's like I let the moment fly as it is. Yet I also still am aware that it's not how I'd like to conduct myself.