Scared to partake in life

Sometimes it scares me,
the interactions i have.
A non tonal or without the clarity of face interactions
And then the reinterpretation of past events.
I don't think i could do them again.
I don't think I want the future uncertainity.
Even the simple act of sleepin... will my dog be ok, did i do or say the right thing!
It scares me.
What is to become of me,
how do i make a decision?
How can others dictate my actions.
What am i doing and does it make sense!
Random is good, till u think of the repercussions o ur emotional self!

Talking to myself isn't enough

"hoping to find the lost splintered pieces of ourselves" (united states of tara)
sometimes there is just no one to talk to, how is it with so many people out there.... lost