a general state of doing has taken over....
when it does it seems i'm not staring at the world but that the objects of the world hit me in the face as i pass through them. if i choose to look at things they become unreal and the reality of driving through an event seems to blur. its like when i look at my are and my fingers moving and wonder how we are connected and that i can't get rid of my own fingers they are an unchosen object to which i am stuck :)